Bright Eyes,Burning Like Fire...

Ok...that was just one of the lines in a song lyric....Each time I listen to it, reminds me of my boys..their innocence, changing phases, activity,playfulness, unconditional love, forgiving, praises, carelessness, curiosity,charm, nonchalance,happiness and so much more that what most adults can see...I look at them, I want to be a kid again..:P

I am currently reading something that has been long in the shelf waiting to just paper age in time...eheh...And realize that book has a very very strong impact in my 'sahm' life..uplifts my worth and morale booster altogether...you know sometimes, when I am done with stuff and the hurry scrurry with the kids in the mornings, especially when they leave for school already....questions swirl in the head, should I be doing something else...now?...like ...out to work or something...but then..time seems not permissable just yet..I have to prep for dinner and their needs when they come back....yep,the inkling to be at work, as in work outside does play in this mind on and off but not that strongly though...as I turn page after page of the book, it points out all the time we all have our worth individually as a woman with different status...be it a stay at home mom, working outside mom, being single, being a ever married person, being on your own...each has portions of what is coming into their lives...the challenges.I have and though to a few it seems I am having this easy duduk pat rumah kind of life......For sure I feel so grateful for this arrangement Allah s.w.t. has made for me...I have the chance for almost 8 years to raise the kids myself with Allah's guidance and mercy..I have the chance to tell the difference if new phases is coming into them...the chance to be there for schoolwork and school problems...just being there in the nutshell.And so far it has been fruitful?....well, they still have a long way to go,insya'Allah...all the same...we all have different chances and opportunities portioned according to how Allah s.w.t. has planned best for us...wallahu'alam...mine is this way,others ,differently...so there is no right and wrong about going thru life how we have been going thru....and one thing for sure...like what the book stresses repeatedly...BE THANKFUL FOR EVERYTHING THAT HAS BESTOWED UPON YOU....so..don't complain lah gitu kan...and another repeated reminders it said..(book in Malay)...BERSIHKAN HATI,BERLAPANGLAH DADA...INGAT AIB DAN KELEMAHAN DIRI....rahsia kita Allah s.w.t. yang ketahui kan..so...gitulah..

School ends today and tomorrow is PG Day...we all will be in school for Husain..so happy for him.And PG Day for Hassan will be held in this home...eheee..all the more I am loving my full time job.But I sort of anticipated things would be busier and pressure gets higher next year...insya'Allah, we can give the best like what we had this year...hols would be busy psyching ourselves but fun has to be more lah...so..relax lah babe (telling myself actually)..

Happy Zulhijjah to all and may this new month brings better productivity in our lives, here and hereafter...amiiin..

Searching for air again...hello November :)

Oh well..expectedly this month will be full of lists of this and that..the pinch is getting harder..2mths jan dec is like a nightmare already for us here..ehee..that 'reassured susah nak cabut' 2 mth fees like bus,school,extraschool and the miscellaneous,uniforms etc etc..all for 2010.And the revised fees of some of those make me wide eyed too...that is how it has always been...anyways insya'Allah..we'll get by.

Unlikeliness of any vacationing during the hols this time...So it is boxing time..as in,abah has to collect some boxes from his workplace..discarded but still in good condition ones to bring home for the twins...they kept saying "want to do projects..want to do projects"...adoi...i dont want to ask what projects but since they'll have loads of free time and day...biorlah situ.

The kids got their report books and yep...classes allocated.They wont be in the same class next year unlike this year.....Though this heart wishes to see them both in the same class(brotherhood sake) and wishes that there is no such system at least not in P2 yet lah, maybe the difference would be better for them in some ways...wallahua'lam....I can already feel the pressure for next year with regards to coaching them thru their schoolworks...maybe harder.Sil assured me its going to be fine and just go with the flow...but I dislike seeing my kids having any kind of stress lah...Ok,I am talking about things that I have no control of that is the future...astaghfirullah..but I worry a wee bit all the same..but hey ok..like a wise person ever mentioned something like this...take a rest and let Him manage..insya'Allah...amiin..

Really sleepy now and tomorrow is the final day for arabic..I will miss teacher very very much....it has been fun and really interesting..need practice though so, I create somekind of habit in using the language with the kids onwards...my zamiilatun has been adorable too ;) ehee...miss you really soon..already rather..faster come back lah you...:PPP got nasik minyak to eat together some more...eheee..insya'Allah.

Meantime..calculations n garuk kepala sikit later on..all the same...alhamdulillah for all things happening this year...for us and especially the kids.Zulhijjah soon..New Year soon..*my head is hearing ABBA's HNY* :PP

Happy counting down to schoolhols all...

We breathe again :))

We breathed here..


and here..



and here

and best,here :))

Exam over, results out...Alhamdulillah for everything :)) We all breathe easy again...Mak and Abah are very happy with their exam performance..they worked for it hence reap what they had sowed...may Allah s.w.t. guide them thru and thru for here and hereafter...amiin.

Yesterday, after a couple of years last we headed to Orchard Road...that stretch looked so so so so different from what I could recall..the old Orchard Road...halamak I tell you...like jakun.Husband was telling me that we had not been in that shopping zone as if eons then suddenly this ION towered over us...so huge that it almost 'bullied' us into going there first but then, we preffered the planned trip to Times Centrepoint for the kids..Anyways..me n family are not so Orchard Road tailor made...when we were teens,yes...but now, the 'happiness' just wanes over the years...shopping for us is now,necessity and needs...window shopping dare not much also..for kids' sake,we prefer to stick to smaller places and book stores..so maybe it will be like eons till we actually want to step into ION...in my heart like mak nenek i said "buang duit betul lah buat besar2, mahal2"....kakakakka...n dun let me go on with that almost an island of casino resort bla bla bla....:PPP

The book vouchers were all used up unlike the planned two pieces first...ehee..being arty farty doubles ,after choosing their books,they wanted connector markers as well...all for hols sake,never mind..'investment' for the school hols...Husain got himself a book of Wimpy kid and Geronimo for Hassan..and couldn't wait to get home to try on the markers and when they did, they almost doodled for 2 hours...only stopped when we all had to head to nyai's for a family meeting...didn't realise the markers came with a Oeinstein's doodle demo vcd....eheh...am a fan of his drawings too.I really think he is one of the best doodlers on Earth..although cartoony kinds but a lot of cute expressions go along with it.Simple steps but wonderful completion of pretty well blended colours to the pictures.Cantik.The boys had been to his workshop held in IMM.He was really fast and good with his drawings and no matter how skeptical looking scribbles he would always started with, those would ended up with really really really wonderful pictures.He made everything he did looked so easy and I did watch him step by step...imagination and happy thoughts is everything.

End of the day..kids were happy..that matters all the time.